Who the hell am I? Who's Wilch Mari?

"What's the thing that can describe you?" or "What is the best description of yourself?" I always hear these questions, and honestly, I don't know how to answer them, and I am also not sure what is the best thing that can describe me or the things that can describe me, and well, I have, but still, I am not sure. Sometimes the truth is, many people have a lot of descriptions, or they know how to describe me; it's so humiliating that even I don't know what's the best description or what’s best describes me. But I guess, for me, some of the descriptions of me by the others aren't meant or aren't really true; sometimes it's the opposite. Many relatives and even friends can describe me as a person who is an academic achiever and a person who always excels, but for me, I am not that kind of person, and I think that I am just a normal student that has a mechanism, which is the "study hard mechanism", I just know that I am not born smart; I am more likely the student who studies hard and does her best even if it's hard, and I am just the girl who always does her best to shine brightly and become the person who everyone admires because of her works and also her attitudes. Some people also describe me as a person who can't even try to raise a voice with her members, or you can be called a person who has great patience, which is a little bit true since for me communication is the key, listening to their reasons is the best, and understanding them.

Many people can describe me perfectly and beyond my imagination, and I am shock because I didn’t expect their description of me. But let me tell you about my dream occupation. When I was four years old, I always dreamed of becoming a lawyer (a legislative type), but when I was in seventh grade, I wanted to become a flight attendant because of some novels that I read (but I know my heart wants to become an lawyer), but my mom didn’t agree about me becoming a flight attendant, and when I was in eighth grade, my mom told me to become a pediatrician, which I agree with, but in some point it change again and just agree about myself becoming a lawyer and when I was in ninth grade, my mom told me to become practical and be an accountant so that it is related to law, which is that if I pass the certified public accountant board exam and also the bar exam, I can also be a CPA-lawyer, that scenario can describe me as a fool; I am that kind of person who agrees on what I’m going to do because of what I read and what my parents want me to become, and I just know that I am that kind of person who don’t follows her own thoughts and feelings and just agrees with her parents because they’re just afraid of them. But I know that you can describe me as someone who is able to fight her dreams, like becoming a lawyer, and also just like now that I am forcing my parents to agree that I will study in the city in college because for me there’s a lot of benefits and opportunities there. And that scene can also describe me as someone who is an over thinker, because even if I am just a 14-year-old girl and there’s also a senior high school left, I am thinking about college, and I am thinking about what’s the course that I will take, what’s life like during college, what’s the question on the college entrance examinations, and what’s the university I will try to enroll in. But the real question is, can I survive senior high school, or can I even survive college? Since I am barely passing grade 10 but I am still doing my best to become a student who can be a role model to anyone.

 There’s a lot of description about me, but for me, the surest one is that I am the person who can’t give up easily and just tries and tries until I succeed, and there’s a lot of evidence on that, like this high school academics: when I was in elementary school, I always got 80+ on my cards, but now even one I don’t have those 80+ grades, and also when I lost being the grade 10 representative of the Supreme Secondary Learner Government, I tried to join the Filipino club, and there we are, I succeeded and won as a vice president of the Filipino club. The second is that I am fragile. Some people may think that I am strong enough, like the tempered glass, but I also have a weakness, and sometimes they think it’s okay to be straight-forward with me instead of taking me easy, but it’s okay; I understand them. The third one is that I am an overachiever. I do not settle for less in grades; I want to excel and become one of the tops, even if they say, "grades don't define who you are," but for me, "grades really do define me." But in the end, we need to relax and do our best to become better and successful one day. We need to become a better version of ourselves that our younger selves can be proud of. 

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